It Still Hurts

When someone you love deeply, hurts you, the pain may double for a while, when you realize it is their woundedness that wounded you. You hurt for yourself, and you hurt for them.

It’s hard to forget the sting that their words and actions caused you. But your heart cries for the pain that they must have on the inside. “Hurting people hurt people.”


And as I find myself, thinking more of their wounds, my offended feelings, start to lighten. When I consider what may be going on in their soul, it becomes easier to have compassion, to love them even more, and most importantly, to forgive. Is this the path to healing? If I choose to let God bring healing and forgiveness to my heart and soul, might it in some way help them to heal? I think, yes!

Each of us must make our own choice, but when I am free from my offended heart, when I let it go, and forgive, I believe it opens the door to a restored relationship. When my wounds are healed, I have a greater understanding, a sincere compassion, and a deeper love! 

So while it may still sting, the pain lessens as I let Jesus work in my heart. I even start to feel hope and joy, knowing that if God loves and heals me, He’ll do the same for them!

“For there is no partiality with God.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭2:11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

“who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭1:4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭34:18‬ ‭NIV‬‬

“Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony.”
‭‭Colossians‬ ‭3:13-14‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Beauty for Ashes

My first blog is for those who know me…But please go ahead and read it, even if you don’t! I know absolutely nothing about blogging btw. I’ll learn as I go! Haha

But here goes..

It may have came across at some point, whether on the “platform” of social media or other positions or podiums, that I always did the “right” thing at the time of hopelessness, pain, heartache and sickness. I’ve told of how I “fought my battles,” and how God was always faithful…and He is. But seems and it has come to my realization, that I may not have communicated, the times it felt impossible, the times when I was so crushed, I believed I would never be complete. And of the times, that I didn’t pick up my guitar and worship. I haven’t told of the heartache of thinking that even God must not love me. Why else would He allow all of this pain? Couldn’t He just fix the situation I was going through? Couldn’t He just allow the person that hurt me to really see how it broke me?

No, I didn’t always run right to God in those times. Sometimes, I chose to stay in the “pit” for a while. I chose to pity myself and tell myself and others that, “I don’t deserve this!” Sometimes it came right down to the moments of giving up! But thank God, that He never did, and He doesn’t give up on me!

Fight the good fight, it says in 1 Timothy. Not with words or even deeds, but fight the good fight of faith! It’s about “believing” not about what what I “did” or “do” to get me through those times. Even those times when I felt like I didn’t believe,” HE didn’t or doesn’t let me go! I may have ran away at times, but when I chose to run back to Him, and fight to “believe,” those are the times that I picked up my guitar to worship! No, I didn’t “feel” worthy, but He always meets me right where I’m at. No matter the state of my life. And He will continue to do that, as I continue to “choose” to run to Him, because I haven’t arrived yet, and I won’t until I get to the other side! But I will continue to grow and learn from those hard times.

I’ll let Him turn my mourning into dancing, I’ll put on a garment of praise instead of despair, I’ll trade my ashes for beauty, and be called an Oak of Righteousness (strong and magnificent, distinguished for integrity, justice, and right standing with God) the planting of the Lord, that HE may be glorified! (Isaiah 61:3)

He’ll do it for you too! Don’t give up! Run to HIM, and let Him turn your ashes into beauty!!